Tuesday, July 03, 2007
2:49 PM
I've been accused again for wasting electricity. Now my sister was the me that I was before. Wonder will she inherit the 'me' that I am now? She is in my footsteps. She doesn't know it, but I do. When I was at her stage in time, my thoughts started to crack me up, and if she didn't know, I find the self she was mirroring, myself exactly myself 2 years before. And boy do my current self like that past. That's why that sacian self couldn't be lost. Not with the unspoken mime between sisters like that.
Today I had to crawl to school early. Met fang before I went to hand up her work [coz she was lazy to go to school and do it herself?] But honestly, I thought we had to shade our final work decently [hers was juz abstract shading] and it proved that I was right... But I can't tell her that because this darn computer banns msn [I'm using the school computer] and my batt when flat with no means of charging. Disappointment. How?
Hah. But all the others who didnt hand up their work didn't turn up either. Big bad news. You need it in Tay's ownership before 2pm TODAY. TIME OUT. Sighs. but of all things I lost my thumbnails. Two of them... Don't tell me those I saw on the corridor yesterday was mine? [crosses fingers] Anyway he was nice [as he was with my grades] to let me find it and surrender them within the week. [Please tell me they're at home or else I'm so dead = redraw]*But at least my saturaday effort wasn't in vain.
So I was at the interchange as usual, thinking about those ex-classmates of mine in JC having their A level orals [good luck again!] when I bumped onto this old lady on a crutch. She had this cheena accent and I didn't get a heck of what she was saying but then I still explained the bus route anyway [sort of figured it out]. She was quite chatty and was thanking me profusely. But I didnt take that in. Then she got up the single decked bus with difficulty as I strutted away like someone spoilt brat [damn i regret this]
By the way, her purpose of asking me [if anything] was that she wanted to get to her friend's house which was in Tampines blk 700+. Her friend told her to take bus 72 which did go past these areas and to get off the 2nd stop. [But obviously that friend didn't know it would get this friend of hers old enough to be my grandma in trouble]. I watched her from afar as she clambered up to the nearest seat to catch a breath [but do note that I was sitting far, far away]. She was within my line of sight but not within my line of action.
After passing the first stop [which was the beside the swimming complex] she started showing obvious signs of nervousness but still I kept my distance. Then at the turn of the first stop she was muttering to herself in an attempt to get the driver's attention [but the driver was a young Indian, so obviously couldn't understand her cheena tone right?]. Boy did I feel real guilt then. Thereafter when the bus turn on was when my conscience asked me to do what I could to help. I really needed a lot of pushing by my conscience eh... So I approached her, attracting the stares of everyone on board and lumped myself beside her assuring that it was the next stop she wanted. Tough bus ride. She was chatty all over again and signs of her tension ceased. But wait. This wasn't the end.
When she got down the next stop. She painfully and slowly got down, seemingly to tell me of my selfishness and she starred blankly into the world beyond.
"Why didnt I get down to ensure that she ended up in her destination?"
"Why didnt I do what I could in the first place?"
"Why didnt I at least ask the bus driver to help her?"
"Why didnt I..."
Self disgust came rushing out.
I was terribly disgusted by myself.
Horrible.
Well, so after that, my whole mind was racing on what the heck happened to her after that. Worrying, for such a cause. What a terrible person I am.
So wells. I prayed for her.
I was amazed that the prayers I have been monotonously saying for not a few, but 10 years couldn't even come to the tick of my brain. Sad.
I pray that she would be okay. I pray that she wasn't on the wrong stop. That was all I could do as a selfish, useless person.
Sighs. What a pathetic life I lead.
And that silly stupid thomas is doing weird things again .
So I went there to that accursed drawing studio in hope to find someone that was around to chiong homework like me only to find that I was the only one, and I accidentally barged into someone else's class by accident. Pathetic.
But thankfully wan ying was in the library and she messaged me so yah. Haha. i finished it up by 1 [or thereabout], listened to him nagg away, found out that I lost my 2 thumbnails. And... Ended up in this computer lab doing this all because I had no mood to do any homwork <- slacker.
There done
[Wobbles]
