Wobbles-

Monday, July 02, 2007

8:58 PM

Does anyone still read this crap? I don't know. But its not really my problem anyway, I still want to update.

I can't write crap when I am crap. Is this pathetic or what? My line gets cut, folks read over my shoulder for EVERY WORD I type and I'm being accused of getting addicted. Really sucky life. [Yes this is to you peeping tom-ia behind my butt]

Sighs. Oh yes let me mention good luck to those folks having chinese A level orals. Good luck good luck. I know O level chinese orals was just last year around this time and you folks must be sick of all these crap, but hey, look on the bright side. I mean, I'm crap! Haha. Any questions and my doors are always open for you darlings ^_^ And a special addition to Shivaan having her this friday.

Oh yes, a few days ago i went for godma's church 'games night' and godma insisted I came in the primary colours of light so i went in primary red, aka a red dress [because it was storing dust and heapfuls of god-knows-what in my wardrobe. Then godma tied a strip of garbage bag around me and said "You will be blossom for tonight!" What the heck. Haha...But quite fun lah, although I was freaking tired that day because I've just spent the previous night and all my concious hours on DF [which got rejected; stupid bright, electrical, copper kettle >_<] so I was basically a walking corpse.

Then teh bing n cherlie appeared to see me looking my most foolish yet, adorned in red ribbion and a black trash bag around my waist [pity cant show you pictures coz this blog can't load pics; and I dun noe y] Oh yah, so teh bing came in blue and she became 'bubbles'. Funny & cute. And I nevertheless was most akward when i saw cherlie, coz she is now so freaking gorgeous... Wah, she even won free movie ticks for the night by being the most whatever. [Heh eh but i still got the video of her in her school days harrassing my mummy! Wa ahahaha! <-blackmail?!]

Yup but she looks so different now... But that is good. And she understands my stand by being a feminist. That's even better. So you noe what i mean, god one-chan eh?

Sighs. But godma is always on her side so... whatever.

I met Jan n Shivaan today. Cool. Actually Hweein was supposed to be around but I guess she can't get her lazy bum out of bed eh? [joking lah =P]But it was quite nice. We met like 8.00am++@ bugis to eat breakfast the hawker centre near the si mah lu guan yin miao. [Please try to dechiper?!] And we had fried carrot cake [but due to the hawker's rules?;he won't fry it black so I had to make do with it lor]

But we had such a great time chatting. Spring was totally in the air for some folks like [eh eh >_^] and my dear shivaan. Yah but we talked all the way from eight to ten, then on the bus journey we continued for an hour until we parted ways outside SRJC. That place where I... cannot describe [beyond description?] Wah but it was sure enjoyable.damn rocks. Then janice followed me to nyp coz she need a computer [hers broke down] Haha [sinner] but then wan ying found out so opps =x

Oh so during COMM today we had a self esteem test. Seems like my self esteem is pretty...? high? low? I don't know? Yup yup but the folks behind me sure have real DAMN HIGH EGO.Wah. Chauvanist pigs. [not on purpose =x]

But today damn high lah. During drawing i was laughing and laughing at duno what... Because im crap?! .-__-. Then i was making jokes about my birthday.[So I want a present ah! And don't combine the christmas present in thank you very much] But my deepest condolences to those who suffered on that fateful day though, one that they would surely curse and leave an imprint on them for the rest of their lives. Im sorry. I didnt mean all those crap in a bad way. Haha but I just continue laughing and laughing anyway. I think I'm too high but I know I can't sustain this momentum. Pathetic.

Maybe its like what Shivaan has said. Maybe I knew it all along. I was changing all along. In this journey of about half a year, I have changed drastically. I do miss that sacian self. Its an imprint I locked in the bottom of the treasure chest in my heart. I can never fit into its shadow again. Still i suppose the concious realisation came about when quek said "I can't imagine you being an sacian."

Perhaps she is right. I was always there but was never part of the action, part of the flow. Or was I? But it can no longer hurt me now. Because it is a me I have shed, and locked away. Is that bad? I can't decide it for myself, and no one else can. You know it, and I know it too.

Wah. Damn it. I'm going emo.This isn't good. Sighs. I have to appear in school early tomorow, and the rest of this week. And my mum wants me to lose weight. Or cut my allowance. Tough deal. I've assignments that never seem to give me up. Now im stuck in a corner where I need to skip lecture to attend class. Life can get much worse.

But how much more worse can it get? I won't want to challenge this.Thank you very much.

My dad bought a new TV before the GST rose. I have hell no idea what the heck it is but lets hope it turns out good ^_^

Alright. This spells the end of my long entry. Enjoy the rest of the week!

[Wobbles]