Sunday, June 24, 2007
9:34 PM
Abstract yet again
It was a hot day
I went into a confined space,not knowing exactly why or what I'm doing...
Swirling in my head was the long lost faces of those I want to meet...
I stepped onto the shaky floor and glanced up in reaction, though I was in my own world of music and thoughts.
She looks so familiar
Yet so far
Yet we're so near
Yet I'm not sure
Is it the 'her' i know and used to see?
The days retreated and proceeded like the waves on the beach
Yet wave by wave
They brought back my memory
"You'll feel true loneliness because you had once truly loved and cherished every day."
"You'll feel true loneliness because you have never truly loved and did not cherish everyday."
I'll fall for the first.
I hope.
Time brushed us by
As I was ever contained
To steal a silent peek
For fear the other would know
'Is it her? She looks so different.'
I know our minds held the answer
Her presence seemed to remind me of everything I used to own
I want 'em back
Stop by stop passed
My mind got ever cooler
But there was not one moment
where the try to speak fitted in
I could only helplessly stare at the floor
Grab onto something
Hope I would not get blown away
And at that fateful moment...
I think she stepped out of my life
Forever?
All eternity?
This I do not know
But it is affinity we meet
And for the next time
I hope to muster the courage
To at least
"Hi."
*****
So my dear classmate has left for another world and another land...
I'm always the forsaken one.
Actually classmates
Teresa in Australia
Joan in California
Will we all one day leave this island altogether?
Glad Joan has settled in well ^^
All the best
[[You will always be part of DMD0706]]
*Although this might sound honestly freaky^^
Oh wells
*****
So I ended up in suntec just for my dearest Mel. C
Hahas
But Im not joking
I really went all the way there despite meeting only she and she alone
And plus I had to pay adult fare for the whole trip through and fro
And you know how it gets really pricey and all
Especially for a cheapskate like me
But for the sake of my long lost love [er hems...]
Still went along anyway
We had laksa
In a place I never had before
Somewhere in suntec
Thank goodness I need not squeeze with the sunday crowd
That uncle looked old and wrinkled
But had the poise and behaviour of a chef in a 5-star restuarnt
And so did the place
with the cutlery, funiture and all
*except for the stall of course
*And I have tastebuds that are hard to please, especially when it comes to laksa yah ^^
[Though the food wasnt all that excellent, but Mel C loved it anyway]
And the service was
Pretty pleasant
The money was worth everything expect maybe for the food
We spent like forever
Sitting together
Had a pleasant conversation
[But I was gulity of pouring my sorrows as usual. Sorry babe]
Mel C had starbucks frappacino [or wateva ya call that thing wif grinded chocolate chip]
Too sweet
But she loved chocolate anyway
So let her be^^
And her drink even got the auntie tending the laksa stall flocking
Cool or what?
Haha. My honour to have an auntie who is so damn attention-catching >_< yay!
An irreplacable atmosphere
Wonder when will I have such a time again with the busy pretty...
sighs...
Then I had to let her go
With the pair of folks who are my good friends with their bfs [who are not my gd frens but no offence yah]
Maple.
What can it really do to people?
And my dear god ne-chan
screamed/yelled from the escalator in the middle of the busy traffic citylink mall;
"Luanie you look so weird!"
That does it.
You can change yet I cannot
You told me not to
And yet you did
W.O.W. And what? I'm supposed to oblige?
That my-junior's-brother-bf of yours
I'm offically stating my stand
I object
Not to what you folks eat
But you folks being together
I'm not changing my stand
Coz its darn firm
I don't care if you don't care
But I want to tell you.
I want for you happiness
But will you ever understand where I am coming from
Ever?
Truth to be told
Remebering that day that you told me you and him were it
And my reaction
Was not one of an addiction to food fairs.
I don't know how to say this.
But the moment I turned and left
I cried.
Will you ever understand?
Even if its just me and myself
And being utterly selfish and childish?
"Its time to let go"
I had to brainwash myself
To wish you and him happiness
Its with her, and now its you.
How many more parts can I shatter?
Maybe
I was truly naive
Maybe
I expected too much
Gave too much
And hence now
It hurts so much
And I don't think I can ever tell it to you straight again.
But trust me
I still do cherish you.
I really do
And forever will
So if really anything goes bad
I will always be there
Like you were before
[Wobbles]
