Wobbles-

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

1:37 PM

Hi Ho! Yups… Sorry, the “ and the ” couldn’t come out rite… But anyways it is still presumably readable huh…

And so, like all other current probable ‘O’ level holders have to face, me, Luanie the Great Monster, is also at this phrase of my life. This can be quite stressful… But I presume once I overcome it… I will look back and ponder how I managed to manage it, or not manage it for this part of my life. For now, I am trying to do the best I can so that I wouldn’t leave much regrets years down the road, and someday, perhaps boast again of my youthful years. It’s quite sad actually, if you actually recall at some glorious chunk of your life, you were sitting on front of TV looking all lazy and stuff… I wonder how my future self will do… Cry at my current incompetence? Or make more fish balls to create more Luanie Monsters around the world as her ideal and most faraway dream…?

And yes, back to my previous subject on my absolutely-pathetic sister trying to give a shot to her dreams… Yah, she confessed to me I have been dumping to much cold water… In fact too much more than I should. I guess I’m really getting kind of moody lately [not because I am PMSing or what but really] and I don’t feel like socializing anymore. I don’t want to be so… Not me anymore, I guess. You have to be courteous, speak loud and clear, short and sweet, or even add flavors to what others reckon as ‘you’…L The image they have already shaped, by their first impression. I confess I do it too. I don’t know why… Monster nature? J [Shrugs] I feel so tired maintaining it because… I don’t want anything untoward to happen to me… Suppose it is a fear, few would find it simple to understand. Well, if you can’t, then don’t, just take it as a mysterious part of me that you should keep a distance with and don’t ever try to understand… It will give you short circuit... Anyway, it was said that it is better to keep a little distance than to try and be Mavolio… [The one from Shakespeare’s twelve nights] To try to fit in with every situation and circumstance of a person… It is like… Everyone is a porcupine. Even if you can’t see the spikes… Venturing too close to get to know too much detail of another porcupine won’t do you good except if you love to get poked… And that air of secrecy maintains the attraction force that keeps everyone friends. Everything usually looks nicer at a suitable distance.

Ok… Sorry I sidetracked too much… Yes, my monstrous sister is still not really on her full might to practice English but surprisingly, I see more and more English books around the place… Please give me tags to tell me what kind of books are the best to improve one’s language except for the bloody dictionary… Thanks in advance! J But I wonder what is with the laziness too… Forget it… I am like… Already very preoccupied with myself and how to keep my six legs shiny and at tip working conditions [sounds of an opening door] OoooHhhh! Papa monster is back with cartons of my favorite fish ball tau gay soup! Ah! Nutrients for me!!! Ok… Signing off now! How a good day! JLJLJL >_