Wobbles-

Monday, October 17, 2005

6:17 PM

Sorry audiences! I didn't know my blog was so on the surface! People of my age are writting so maturely... I feel like I wanna die... "Crash. Bomm! Hey! Don't destroy my funiture!" (laughs)

Okay.. Enough of jokes... Some blog I happened to hop past is so... I don't know what to say lah... My hands are all jelly now and I can tell you I really typing slowly coz my hands are being jellified...

I don't want to talk about politics, current affairs, nor mature stuff, they are not the "in" thing here so... Okay. For those who saw me comment somewhere in their blog please watch up. I wish to send my condolenses to Teh Bing's grandma who has just passed away last saturday. You saw this huh, so DON"T DARE YOU ACT BLUR. YOU KNOW WHO I MEAN (FOR THOSE WHO KNOW WHO I AM>>>)

Okay, back on my "Talk to myself session" that you folks enjoy...
Opposition_O. Luanie_L
O: How are you today... You don't sound very nice... (I mean on the top)
L: I'm kind of like speechless
O: Why?
L: I never meant for this blog to be a trash-out-my-mind-session, and my keyboard is cranjking up again, I've been using it to type a 40 over page novel and... I ask my dad to change it soon...
O: I was not asking about keyboards, you know what I mean...
L: Yes, I know, but suddenly realising that the real audience is facing me now... I don't know what you'll call it... Stress? I want somebody to know I am here amongst these fabulous people. Never mind if I do not stand out, I just want to know that you know I am there and will be there when you need me, I am serious. Applies to EVERYONE I know, no matter you are in rank of my enemy, or whatever, I wish to be there for the world when it falls, *(not appicable vice versa) I believe I can settle my problems (or so I think...)
O: But your dad says there is something mental with you now of days...
L: I don't know, I'll tell you my status and you can weigh it...
L: I feel like dying (I just allowed someone to strangle me today), I want to be a failure in life and just end it all by eating some chemical X, I wanna slag my studies, get retained, I want to hand up blank exam scripts, drip blood on them, I feel like jumping off the new integrated resort when it's done, just to make history (Dun worry, I'll be off for NS in Malaysia then) , I wanna do something that will settle my parents lives so that they will not be miserable for a lost cause. I don't want to be a trouble for the world when I die, how I wish I can bury myself, I don't mind slow death, but strangely enough I believe God keeps me here for a reason, or I would have collapsed some other day but I did not. When I see the miracles of outer space I wonder it and beyond. I don't know what I am feeling. (I know it is about time teenagers question about life but...) . Anamania is making me all depressed and like I've mentioned above, I want myself to be of no nusiance so I decided I shall tell my problems to no one but my stuff..
O: Yah, go on...
L: Sorry! I didn't mean for this to become so... I find myself lost in the maze and wonders of life... Sorry to get the air so dull. But sincerely I have not got any happy stuff to share today whilst basking in the luxuries my God has granted me. I am so... take it for granted... pardon me lord, I don't know how much I owe you and how much I want to thank you for everything. (I AM NOT OF CHRISTIAN RELIGION) so... Have a nice day today. Promise I will make the net adventure have a much nicer ending...

Remember to let your eyes rest huh... Can't type any more, I am all wobble wobble... (^_^lll)